Who Am I? And Why Am I Here?


These are the big questions, aren’t they? Not just the ones I should answer for you, the prospective reader, about the purpose of this blog, but the ones every person with any decent sense of introspection asks themselves at some point in their lives. I don’t think I’m qualified yet to answer existential questions about humanity in general (give it a few years), but I am arguably the most qualified person to address existential questions about this specific blog. So here it goes!

The subtitle says “From apologist to atheist” because that’s my journey in a nutshell. I was raised in a non-denominational Christian church, listened to Christian music, worked in a Christian bookstore, went to a Christian university – I was inĀ deep. I thought I had a solid real-world foundation for my beliefs: the Bible was literal and verifiable, evolution was a baseless conspiracy, God was a logical and obvious reality.

And then I decided to investigate the other side. Plagued by a life’s worth of small doubts built up over decades, I started reading non-Christian literature for the first time. I discovered that a critical analysis of the Bible reveals more humanity than divinity, that there’s more evidence for evolution than I ever realized, that the Christian God doesn’t stand up to rational scrutiny. With much turmoil, I left the church and have yet to return.

I wanted to start this blog to add my voice to the ever-growing ranks of ex-believers in America, especially Texas. Some posts will expand on my own story and arguments that ultimately led to my deconversion. Others will be reflections of growing up in the Christian sub-culture and venting about the Christian-Republican complex that has become so powerful in modern society. If you’re reading this as a Christian, I’m not necessarily here to change your mind, but I hope you would be inspired to examine and refine your beliefs. If you’re reading as an ex-Christian, know that you’re not alone! There are many others who’ve had your same doubts, your same struggles, and made it through to the other side.